updates

lazy type chinese.. just want to mark something here..
recently... really down.. i duno maybe it's cos my jealousy too sensitive or wat.
i really really think both of them have something.. oh man i hope they just admit or make it clear to me..

when i was giving up, and u act differently.. one side of mine telling myself that u 2 is nothing, but another side saying i am lying to myself.. ahhh...

trying to change my life, my lifestyle, my habits..
tried to smoke for first time, it doesn't help much actually..
tried to talk with a fren, it does help a bit, glad i have her to listen..
tried to not meeting up her and him, failed miserably..

it's less than 10 days until 2010.. and this is surely part of my resolutions for next year..
jia you.